Do you feel you’ve lost connection with your true self?
Maybe you mumbled “yes,” surprised by your own voice.
Maybe you wonder “how would I even know?”
Last year, I feared I was losing mental faculties. Noise overruled my mind’s agility and cognition.
My thoughts flipped from one busy thing to the next — work, bills, dinner, chores, errands — repeating daily. This “to do” list occupied my mind on auto pilot. Work, text and email notifications — ironically cheery pitches of “ping, ding” — jarred me to the present moment several times an hour, every hour.
I’d hurriedly address the interruption because every single thing felt urgent.
I was functioning from anxiety to panic, back to anxiety. Returning to the “to do” list and picking up where I left off was my brain’s default. Emotionally, I rotated between anxious, weepy, tense and irritable.
I consistently felt up against a self-imposed clock and time was running out. My memory became a black hole. By evening, I couldn’t tell you what I ate for lunch earlier in the day.
During a routine checkup my doctor asked “how are you feeling?” I remember reporting, “feeling fine although my heart races when I wake up and my mind rushes until I fall asleep, no problems though.” I thought it worth mentioning; however, not of real concern, just the day-to-day. Going on two years.
She took a long pause and an equally long look at me. After several detailed questions and an unplanned EKG, my doctor informed me “your relaxed state is where most people experience fight-or-flight response.”
Feeling blended and blurred within the ceaseless noise of internal dialog, media, errands, friends, colleagues, etc., I became deaf to my true self. When asked for my opinion, I drew a blank. I sifted through jumbled words attempting to identify an appropriate response.
What did I feel, what did I want? I had lost touch with my spirit.
If you can relate, it is time to take a breather.
By intentionally reducing the amount of distraction in your life — daily, hourly if necessary — you’ll begin to recognize your true feelings again. This is the start of reconnecting with your spirit.
Here are 9 methods for reducing noise (download this cheat sheet).
These suggestions may sound like the only option is to go into isolation, be an asshole and cast away all social activity. Not so.
Try out one or two of these methods for a week. Use the space to permit yourself time each day to observe your role in your own life. Pay attention.
Identify what has you spinning in circles or always picking up the broken pieces. Anything monopolizing your time no longer deserves it.
Do you already know your sources of noise?
I bet you can easily name 3 sources draining your energy, stealing your time, deteriorating your quality of life and therefore, connection with self.
Make time to meet yourself again.
Take a few minutes and ask yourself “how are you?”
Now, what is your gut response?
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Originally published at medium.com