When I thought I was powerless, when I thought I couldn’t create my own reality, when I thought I was a victim unable to take action that would create a new reality… I was WAY jealous of others. I was a supremo victim, would say all sorts of nasty things to somehow justify my unhappiness. No one had told me yet that I created my own reality. No one told me that when other’s made me jealous it was actually a GIFT and invitation to say, Hey what would it take for me to have that too?
I remember when other women used to make me feel about 1 inch tall. In fact I remember one particular incident. I was at a Retreat out in Palm Springs. On the last night there was a ‘free dance’ section where we were all in a circle and there were 6 spots and when you heard a song you loved, you stepped up quick and the first 5 to step up got to enjoy dancing to that song. So I felt totally intimidated by these amazing women who had these gorgeous outfits, were doing insane dance moves, owning their femininity. I mean, I was glued to my seat for over an hour feeling worse and worse about myself. So I got up and moved… went to the bathroom, said to myself, I can do it… they all started somewhere and didn’t give up. I am not going to judge me for what I’ve been through or where I am. I’m going to celebrate that I’m taking action! I insist on having fun being me!
So I did. And I danced. And the women cheered. They were kind. And I lived. And I will keep dancing. Keep showing up and keep growing. For being jealous won’t get me anywhere. But saying for the invitation to come home to ME… now that will take me beyond the stars.
Intimacy Expert Allana Pratt’s passionate devotion to her audience via her podcast, blog, and coaching sessions helps men and women reclaim their joy, freedom and personal power dating and in relationships.