Recently I stumbled upon a blog post by Abby Hubert who wrote about how she felt afraid and sad even when all signs point to joy.
You can read her full post here.
That is so me.
I recognise myself a lot in what she said because….
- I just had the most amazing 3 blardy weeks in Bali. (and looking forward to Hanoi in October and Thailand in December)
- I have a generous and loving husband who is my best friend.
- I don’t have to work.
- I have a beautiful home.
Yet I’ve ALL these insecurities, fear and sadness that makes me feel less than; and my lie that “I’m not good enough” keeps coming up.
Trish, my good friend and my yoga soul sister said to me, quoting Baron Baptiste – “Your Not-Good-Enough is waiting to happen.”
(Disclaimer: Well she didn’t say Not-Good-Enough, the word she used for Unwelcoming but I guess you can insert your Lie into the sentence – “My _____ is Waiting to Happen.” So I heard it as my Lie!)
It didn’t make sense in the beginning. Then I heard it again.
“Your Not-Good-Enough is just waiting to happen.”
Boom!
My not-good-enough is showing up and waiting to happen, because I’m allowing it to happen, just by thinking it.
Baptiste Yoga has broken me out of this cycle of doubts and of not-good-enoughs in that, it has made me aware of the negative thoughts that has been swirling around my mind my entire life. These wayward thoughts were Lies that I believed as my Truth.
That being said, the power is not in ignoring my Lie, but in acknowledging it, because the Lie has been my armor, it kept me safe in my comfort zone and made me who I am today.
The truth is we are all GOOD enough right where we are, and we can take our power back by changing the words we say to ourselves.
When all else Fails, just take a DEEP INHALATION and a DEEP EXHALATION.
When you inhale, there is a sense of filling up, energising, of prana, so fill up from the centre and radiate out. When you exhale, soften where you can soften – your shoulders, your jaw, your heart centre.
And YES PLEASE, take a couple more of those. It’s Free.
“Give yourself permission to Pause and Breathe.”