What should I do with my life?

My list is empty and I don't know what I want to do.

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In June, I closed my Online Fitness Business after 3 years as a Personal Trainer. I didn’t crash and burn in the first two years like, so the statistics show, 80% of new Personal Trainers. I guess that means I’m a little more determined – some may say stupid – than the rest.

The last two months have been a time of reflection. One of the reasons I held on so tight and for so long is because I felt I was at the end of my list. You know the one I mean. The one in your head that lists every career you’ve ever wanted.

Well my list, hanging in the air and glowing bright white just like in the movies…

Everything I’ve ever wanted to do, now has a blazing strike through the middle of it.

So, at 32, I’ve been sitting here thinking:

What the fuck do I want to do with my life?

It’s not like I’ve only got a few years left either. Going on the current retirement age in Australia, I’ve got 35 work years left. No doubt they’ll shift that goalpost at least a few more times before I get there, so let’s be safe and round up to 40.

40 fucking years and I’ve run out of ideas.

Well, that’s not entirely true.

You see, I dove into the deep end off the 10m platform having no idea how to dive, let alone swim…

And over the last three years, I’ve learned to swim with the best of them.

I’ve also learned I’m pretty damn good at things I thought I’d failed at in the past.

My worst subject at high school was English.

Sure, I wasn’t awful at it. I managed a respectable 74% in my final year. But I didn’t enjoy it, and I always felt out of my depth.

I was far better at computer science.

My worst subject at University was Computer Science.

It’s funny how things can shift so quickly. From the top of the class in computer science at High School to a zombie walking around in a daze at University. No, it wasn’t that anything changed within me; the work became a lot more difficult, and I couldn’t keep up.

So, I switched subjects, found myself on the roller coaster of life, and a few years later I graduated from a different university with a Bachelor of Criminology and minors in Information Systems, Economics and Geography from my previous degree.

Fast forward to 2018

Let’s be clear; I’ll never be a computer programmer. All that code still confuses me, despite feeling a little more confident nowadays. Which is probably a good thing considering I’m now putting food on the table building WordPress websites for bloggers and small businesses.

But the area where I feel most confident, and perhaps surprisingly, the area I most enjoy is writing. From a student who hated writing to an adult who loves it… what a transition.

I think I’ve reflected enough.

Much more and I’ll find myself consumed by analysis paralysis, and that’s no place for an entrepreneur to be.

It’s time to take action.

I’m back. I’m hungry. I’m ready.

Ready to write for all of you.

I’ll be back here tomorrow, and every weekday after that.

You coming?

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Originally published at www.tarafitness.com.au

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