It’s difficult when you catch yourself not being you. When you do something or act a certain way and just wonder, “what did I do to deserve this? Why is this happening? When will it get better?” The way you’re feeling is not so much that you’re unhappy, you just feel weird.
The day you realize how much you have grown from this point in time will be your reward. It is so hard to see now, and I feel your pain.
Your light will return to you. Your pure bliss moments, they are seeking you. Your laughter where your tummy aches is in your reach.
Our moods change far too often for us as humans to understand why, but the encounters you make every day have this effect on us.
You must remember the pure happiness you experienced before your first heartbreak, before the first friend became someone you thought they weren’t, before you lost your innocence. That was a time of true joy as you had not a care in the world for the things that would harm you. Better yet, you didn’t have the option to experience them because you were just a child.
The world can be an ugly place, and your attitude towards life can change every day. One thing is for certain: you did not lose who you are internally. We all put on a face for the world. For the people who we try to impress. For the life we want to live. For the things we want to achieve.
Your definitive personality is still in the works. Believe it or not, it always will be. Times like this change us for the better even though we can’t see it.
Your happiness will return. You will be a better, stronger version of you. In fact, you will be the best version of you yet.
Once this phase is over, you will be okay. This I promise you.
Originally published at brightmindposts.com