Still Here, Still Wondering — Mark Nepo

Those Who Reach for the Stars Become Their Own Light

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One day, we think we dare to love
but find we’ve already given our heart
and have no choice but to work our fingers
in that unexpected garden. And unimaginable
things grow. However long the entwining of
aliveness lasts, we feel blessed, like the one
dragonfly allowed to light on the one lily pad
floating on the one calm patch of lake. And
in some moment below all we’ve been
taught, we know Heaven is wherever the
heart gives itself away. Then, after what
seems a lifetime and always too soon, what
we love dies or goes away and the tectonic
plates on which our life stands heave and
break and the heart we so freely gave, now
entangled with the world, is ripped apart.
Nothing makes sense while in this
rearranging pain. Nothing. No matter what
others say, nothing is of comfort while
the heart is reforged in the furnace no
one asks for. Under it all, some infinite
part of us knows that this too, painful as
it is, is the inexplicable continuance of love:
how fires become the bed of seeds yet to be
sown, how mountains crumble into valleys,
how lovers are stilled into their wisdom,
how those who reach for the stars become
their own light. Against our will, our heart
is remade by the angel of grief who grips
the center of our life, shaking everything
dead within us from our branches, until
the heart condenses to a diamond.
Hard as this is to endure,
this too is a miracle.

—Inside the Miracle

In June I’m offering a 3-session online webinar, The One Life We’re Given: Saying Yes to Life, as a way for us to deepen and strengthen our roots as we endure this storm. The sessions will be offered through Zoom: June, 8,15, 22, 2020, 1-2:30PM ET.

My hope is that through this time together you will deepen your conversation with life. That through your own path of obstacle and surprise, you will be opened to your gifts and become somewhat freed of all you carry. The gift and practice of being human centers on the effort to restore what matters when in trouble, so we can make good use of our heart. No one quite knows how to do this, but learn it we must. Our path to love and truth depend on this journey. For information about the webinar or to sign up, check out: Thanks. I look forward to sharing with you as we travel these challenging time to find out way to living an authentic life!

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