As I return to work from a Leave of Absence after a very stressful time in my career, I am excited about my rising. I am unsure if excited is the right word, I want to live in the consciousness of peace, love, joy, and acceptance. Enlightened by the gap that the leave allowed me to create. More than 20 business days out of the office, separated from my role in a leadership position. Stress, I’ve heard, is the business person’s word for fear. I was living in the lowest form of consciousness. Fear of conflict, of inadequacy, of not being enough. Fear of saying the wrong thing, fear of mistakes. Fear that had grown throughout the years, ever so slightly to take over my entire few last days at work. Fear that grew from grief, from disappointments, from coping skills that I had cultivated throughout my life. Fear that shows up for me yearly, when the days are shorter after the summer ends.
My rising, I claim today, will radiate from the love that God has provided me throughout my life. I am visualizing a new chapter in my life. I am open to new experiences, to meeting new people, to meeting my old friends in a new space in my consciousness. I am surrendering to this experience wholeheartedly, allowing myself to be open to the possibilities, surrendering to today, to the present moment. I am open to what life has to bring me, to the abundance of it all, the creativity. I am curious about life.
How are you making space in your life to be curious?