I have always attempted to be real in my blog post, so I am not going to change now. In the last two weeks, my life has been in utter shambles. Throughout my college career, I have worked very hard over the last couple of years to attain certain goals, and the fruits of my hard work never made it to the harvest. Losing my fruits before the harvest placed threatened to shake my very roots. It wasn’t about the fruits that I lost, it was about all the nutrients that went into the creation and growth of said fruits. It wasn’t about the fruits that I lost, it was about the time, commitment, energy and hard work that was lost. It wasn’t about the fruits that I lost, it was about the dreams that lost their nutrients as a raisin would in the sun. It wasn’t about the fruits that were lost, it was about the fact that people would now look at the tree as if something were inherently wrong it and as if its roots were infected. When I say that my life was in shambles, it really was. Over the last two weeks, I have seen my motivation sapped, my willpower drained, my mind clouded with negative thoughts and my eyes swelled with tears. I say all of this not to awaken your sympathy but to awaken your mind through my testimonies.
It is easy to give others advice and act like your life is perfect but that paints a false image. I have had hard times in my life and I am learning valuable lessons through it all. One of the most important lessons that I am learning through all of this is that I need to take responsibility for my actions and stop blaming others. Every decision has a consequence and while you can pick the decision, you cannot pick the consequences that come with it. I have learned that we are all charged with the responsibility of protecting our gates. Through the use of the word ‘gate’, I hope to symbolize our lives. Everyone is charged with the responsibility of protecting his or her own gate/life but many times we choose to watch events from afar instead of standing armed and ready to go in the middle of the gate. Some of that is a result of the fact that we have had decisions made for us for the majority of our lives thus far and we become comfortable with taking a backseat on the journey of our own lives while others lead. Some of it is that we become so used to hiding behind people, screens, jobs or titles that we allow any and anything to stroll into our lives.
When I was growing up, I was often told the phrase that, “Prevention is better than cure”. If you can actively guard your gate and prevent unwanted things from entering, then it is better to do so than to allow unwanted things to enter and then struggle to find a cure. There are some things that occur outside the realm of our control but more likely than not, that which is happening in your life is a result of a decision that you made or didn’t make at some point in your life. More likely than not, we forget that we are the gatekeepers of our own lives and allow unwanted evils to pass through our gate. As these evils pass through our gate, they eventually make their way to our doorsteps and then we are forced to deal with that which we tried to avoid. And when we are forced to deal with that which we try to avoid, we are often filled with fear, shame, trauma, and exhaustion. As someone who is still filled with these things, I know that it is a real phenomenon. It is because we are filled with these things that we often wish we could or literally run away. It isn’t that we don’t care but it is because we are still struggling with our inner demons that are whispering that it’s better to take flight than to stand and fight.
It is our inner demons that are telling us to abandon our position and leave the gates of our lives unguarded. It is our inner demons that whispering that you are not enough to withstand the storm that you are going through and that you should just give up. It is our inner demons that are planning the seeds of shame, depression, exhaustion and trauma which are intended to keep you grounded and unable to fulfill your God – Given purpose. It is the Devil himself that has designed this treacherous plan and who has entered through your gates with the intention of destroying your camp. Even though it is hard, and you feel insufficient, you can attain any dream or goal that you set your mind to. But to attain your dream or goal, you have to cleanse your mind. We have to acknowledge the pain that we are feeling and allow ourselves to express our emotions instead of constricting them. We have to reflect on current predicament and be honest with ourselves as to how we got there. We have to acknowledge that it is okay to make mistakes and that the most important thing is how we move forward with them. But in order to move forward and cleanse our mind, we have to realign our priorities, core values, and beliefs. We have to stay in position as gatekeepers even when the battle gets rugged and rough as we remember our priorities, core values, and belief system. By guarding our gates, we are protecting our peace of mind and our purpose in this life. By guarding our gates, we are preventing evils and unwanted things from entering our lives and destroying our camps. It is important to note that it will not be easy to guard your gate, but it will be worth it as you are essentially guarding your peace of mind. As you stay in position, you will have trials and tribulations, but you can overcome them. No matter where you are in your life right now; whether you are on the mountain or in the valleys. Guard the gates of your life so that you can have peace of mind. Guard the gates of your life and prevent the evils, unnecessary worries, pain, guilt, shame, trauma, sadness and other negative thoughts/feelings from entering. Guard the gate of your life so that you can reclaim peace in not only your life but in the lives of others as well as blessed are the peacemakers.
Blog Verse: “He will be a spirit of justice to the one who sits in the judgment, a source of strength to those who turn back the battle of the gate” – Isaiah 28:6
Significance: The one who sits in the judgment is in the place that they are supposed to be. The one who sits in the judgment is in position and is ready to guard the gate if needed. The one who sits the judgment is not shying away from their problems or predicaments but are sitting in the face of them and are facing them head-on. It is also to be noted that the Lord promises to provide strength to such an individual. This is significant for two reasons. The first is that the Lord is acknowledging the fact that it may be hard to sit in the judgment and stay in your position which is he promises to provide strength. This means that it is okay to not be at a 100% as you are defending your gate because God doesn’t expect you to be. If you could do it all by yourself then God would never have sent Jesus to help us to begin with. Even though your inner demons may plague your mind and soul, the Lord promises to deliver you from evil. The second is that the Lord has promised to supply us with strength if we stay in position which is why the Devil wants you to run away. He wants you to run away from your purpose as he destroys your camp and takes away your salvation. But the Lord promises you deliverance if you stay in position and draw your strength from him. It is very important that the Lord will strengthen you and not someone else so be careful who you put all your trust and salvation in. Through trusting and putting your salvation in God, you will not only protect your gates but you will also reclaim your peace.
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