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Our “Terrible Twos” May’ve Been Worse Than We Think

It takes a lot of courage to believe in ourselves when people want us to change so that they can feel better.

My toddler grandson runs up and down the hall just for the joy of running. He revels in getting a spoon of food to his mouth. He shoves sounds together into sentences and beams at his success. He hasn’t figured out yet that anything is wrong. He doesn’t even know that wrong exists.

Most of us started out this way, receiving the love, attention and praise that we all need. But for some of us, something unexpected happened around age two. We were still doing the same adorable stuff, but some of it became inconvenient, and even inappropriate, to our adults. And they began acting differently toward us.

It’s as though we became the square pegs that our adults needed to pound into the round holes. And they sometimes turned to disapproval and even punishment. How did we respond? “How can I get the love back?!” is all we could think about.

This is not about parent-bashing. Everyone’s doing the best they can, with what they have to work with and what they’ve figured out so far.

Approval became conditional, depending on whether we did what the adults wanted. And most of us adapted our behavior so they would tell us that we were all right: “Good boy.” “Good girl.”

The big issue in life became, “Am I all right?” And since we were little, we let others determine that for us. We even let our parents, older siblings, teachers and authority figures decide whether we were good or bad, nice or mean, stupid or smart, hyperactive or lazy, average or great.

We learned that something we needed could be withheld, which led to fear-based thoughts like: “I’m not good enough.” And we gave away our power to choose how to think and respond.

My grandson doesn’t know about wrong, but he’ll find out soon. Not from his parents, because they’re super in their roles. Probably from the local playground or from daycare. There will be a moment when he’ll do something that someone, either a child or an adult, won’t like and will want him to stop doing. And that person will criticize or admonish him, to get him to change.

If he takes in the disapproving message and believes it about himself, he could spend the rest of his life unlearning that he, or anyone else, is wrong. But his family is focused on not letting that happen.

It takes a lot of courage to believe in ourselves when people want us to change so that they can feel better.

E. E. Cummings wrote: “To be nobody but yourself, in a world doing its best to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle any human can ever fight and never stop fighting.”

We need to keep reminding ourselves that we’re all right just as we are, because we’ve decided it. And that we’re not letting anyone else make that decision for us anymore.

Pic by Mike Ricioppo
@riciloco

Read more of Grace’s posts at gracederond.com and follow her on Instagram.

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