Why it is so important to embraces the old you.
By: Christine Depre
It was March 2016 and we were about to celebrate our one year wedding anniversary. I had Never traveled outside the tri-state area before and we had decide to take a trip to Vegas. When we started to plan our wedding after my flash mod proposal in Atlantic city we quickly realized money would be tight and a honey moon would have to wait. I was Completely ok with a small wedding even though I always dreamed of a big one, doesn’t every girl. For me it was a little different though.
I sat back and watched all my friends go to 8th grade dances, proms and graduating while I was struggling to pay rent and feed my two children. I missed out on a lot and my one day wedding was always in the back of my mind. My Husband before Dennis wasn’t the nicest guy. Our wedding was in the court house. I was told I didn’t deserve a wedding or to travel. Someone with four children doesn’t have time for those things. I lived so long missing out on things that I only dreamed about.
I remember being afraid to get on the plane. I posted a picture asking for people to wish me luck, I was so scared. Dennis held my hand the whole way and I oddly became comfortable with being in the air. “Is this real”? It was. When we reached Vegas I saw palm trees for the first time in my life at 34 years old. I took a deep breath and teared up. Things that I dreamed of and watched others do, theses simple things that seems so small to some meant so much to me.
This trip was the start of so many things that I began to embark on. This trip was me saying goodbye to the old me but also embracing her. She taught me so much and not so much of what to do but more of what not to do. She showed me who I didn’t want to be but taught me how to be that strong survivor when I needed to. I shed some tears on this trip both in disbelief that I was even there but also because it was real. The dream the thought the hope had all come true. I wasn’t someone sitting on the sidelines anymore. I let go of the old me, but she will always be standing with me.
I will never allow anyone to control where I go in life again. The old me has shaped who I am today and I am so proud of her.
I Always Find A way