There is not a book published detailing how to do this job. No cards in the Hallmark stores will shed some light on what this stage means to moms across the globe. You just have to take a breathe and fly by the seat of your pants.
Let’s face it – no one prepares you for this time in your life. When our kids are little, we are just concentrating on getting through the day. Keeping the schedules intact without loosing it. Making sure we leave the house looking halfway decent with no food in our un-washed hair.
Then, we blink and those little boys, who used to have the energy of an energized bunny, have grown up. The nerve of them! Days turn into months and then months turn into years! They grow, but we, as moms, look in the mirror and do not want to envision our home without them.
But isn’t that the job requirement? Isn’t it to raise kind, compassionate and strong children so that when they fly the coop, they can land on their feet.
My younger son Christian came into this world 8 weeks early roaring to go. It was as if Christian knew he had a job to do and that job was to take care of his older brother. Casey is the older brother who was and is developmentally and learning disabled. A big job to take on.
This past May, Christian graduated from college with a Communications degree. He is pounding the pavement and sending out resumes. I am crossing my fingers and hoping that something will stick to the wall.
One day, I was frustrated with him. Christian looked at me and said, ” Mom, I’ve got this. This is my journey not yours. And I will figure it out.” At first, my mouth just stayed opened and I had nothing to say.
At that “AHA” moment, I realized he did. This was HIS life and not mine. I made plenty of mistakes in my youth. But it wasn’t really about that. It was about when I looked into his eyes, that little tow-headed boy was gone. In his spot, stood a strong, handsome and compassionate man.
With summer ending and kids going off to college, here are some tips for those moms to let go:
One thing I do say to my boys, is that I will always be their mom. I will always call them out on their stuff no matter how old they are. Carpe diem Christian!!