“Depression” is the one word is ruling our world, especially in the current generation. Even hough everyone knows that it is a negative emotion, it creates a huge impact in transforming our life positively.
I was fed up with my IT (corporate ) job right from the beginning and it immensely kept on increasing in the past 4 years. Due to night shifts, I was suffering from severe depression, along with experiencing panic attacks and Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD) .
I was exhausted both physically and mentally and slowly I started to loose myself.
In this article , I would like to share how depression improved my life and how it helped me to find myself again amidst of many chaos.
1.Closer to Spirituality
During my school and college days, I used to pray intermittently with less concentration. It was like a compulsory duty for me and I used to perform my prayers too fast with minimal interest.
At the time of depression , mindful prayer healed me a lot giving me genuine satisfaction. I started to develop a stronger link with the Allmighty. It was the spiritual development that gave me strong hope and strength to live again.
2.Gratitude development
Gratitude is an essential habit in one’s life and being grateful makes a person internally beautiful. Whenever depressed, I started to write a gratitude list daily during my bed time. It not only helped to see the grateful things / people in my life, it also helped me to forgive and forget negative things which caused distress.
3.Obsession for little things
Little things always counts. During my depression period, I started to pay attention and noticed simple moments that happened around me.
An evening tea time with my mom, watching a beautiful sunset, gazing the blue sky with fluffy clouds, capturing photos during rain, spending time with kids, all such little things gave peace and delighted me to a great extent.
4. Ample time for self
I resigned my job finally few months back and during the break time, I started to do things that gave me genuine happiness. I felt more productive than normal as there was ample amount of time for myself.
My day will start with a mindful prayer along with watching the beautiful sunrise. I did Yoga regularly , made DIY Craft works, spent time in gardening, tried different delicious dishes, learnt basic embroidery stitches. That’s is when I understood the real meaning of “me time’
5.Stronger connection towards passion
Right from my childhood, reading and writing were my favorite hobbies. My aim was to become a good writer and as years passed, it developed further as my passion.
Busy schedules at work served as a barrier between myself and writing.Being an introverted person, I wanted a different way to let out my emotions when depressed ,and that was the time I realized about my passion. I started again to write self portrait poems,flash fictions, short stories, self help articles and published it online regularly. Day by day , my writing got improved and I felt completely whole again after a long time.
In a nutshell, “depression” not only bends a person , but at the same time, it also mends a person in a positive way to transform their life meaningfully.