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Finding the point of it all – 1 part joy, 4 parts smashing walls

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Joy doesn’t come until after the fact. Until you’ve chosen the path you want to follow and choose it time and time and time again.

I rarely plan my blogs a week in advance. Why? To capture the messiness, the uncertainty and the frustration that takes up most of my life right now. It’s taken me four years to figure out what I want to do with my life and now I can choose a path of smashing my head and hope to forget it all or a path of continuously trying and trying (and fucking trying some more) to get through each damn wall. Pivot? From a brick wall to a steel wall, what’s the difference? Pass me the bazooka.

Shouldn’t I be writing an inspiring post to my ideal client who’s trying to figure out what’s meaningful to them? Shouldn’t I be shouting about delusional optimism like I was only a week ago?

Nope. Because realistically speaking, yes your passion will drive you forward, but you better be prepared to go uphill, through gunk and smacked in the face repeatedly. If you’re not prepared to go through it, then you merely have a hobby.

I’ve trained myself to recycle my frustrations into writing – to yank out my anger into black and white before it festers into an imploding rage. A rage that boils at words of solace – ‘it’s their loss’, ‘something will come up’. FFS!

FFS

FFS

FFHFFS

In time the ‘supervising adult’ knocks gently – ‘What are you annoyed at? What expectations are you holding? How realistic are they?’ It always come back to unmet expectations. Do you live a simpler life with smaller expectations or aim sky-high and fall short a few (or a gazillion) times?

Confidence doesn’t come until after the fact. Until after you’ve pushed yourself in a nerve-wracking situation.

Joy doesn’t come until after the fact. Until you’ve chosen the path you want to follow and choose it time and time and time again.

Smashing walls? Yup, business as usual. Now find a window to open.

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Originally published at aspacefor.com

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