Lingering in the shadow
Fear is roaring inside of me
How can you tell, you ask?
I can tell,
My thoughts are not focus
There jump from here to there
Past and the future
Down in the bottom of my stomach
Fear flows upwards to the top of my chest.
Just like the rushing river that drops off into the water fall.
Why do I let this fear haunt me in the shadow of my mind?
When I have so much to be blessed
Two wonderful young men, that calls me mommy.
A man that took them as his own.
A new 2 story home, with a garden and rose in the front yard
my goals are finally being meet.
Which all comes with more reasonability
put too much depends on others
Fear of getting a job
The fear of failure
Fear of disappointing in myself
Fear of taken control
Fear of losing control
Fear of not being heard
Fear of speaking up
Fear of getting overwhelm
Fear of abandonment
Fear is a part of me,
Learning to control my fear
and not letting fear
dictates my future.