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Disconnected

Those that have tried a digital detox reveal how ‘i-ddiction’ is very real, and how switching off makes you see what you’re missing out on.

I was addicted to Instagram

Facebook, Twitter and WhatsApp on my smartphone

    And I couldn’t
ignore likes and comments

    Of my friends and
followers.

    It was a drug for
me.

    After all, it was
not illegal.

    You couldn’t
overdose on it.

I was addicted to my list of status updates.

    When I waked up
was the firts thing to see

    When I went to bed
was last thing I did before sleep.

I was addicted to the rush I got

From a like, a comment, a retweet

On my personal photos.

    I’d never ate my
meal before snapping

    And sharing it on
Instagram and Facebook.

    I thought that my
private moments

    Were always good
content for my followers.

    I believed that
the photographing

    And sharing of a
cool time

    Was more important
than

    Actually
appreciating it in my real life.

I was addicted to having all the information

Right there at my fingertips.

    I never had to
know the answers

    Google told me
everything that exists.

I was addicted to keeping the world

Up to date with my travel status.

    After all everyone
needed to know

    That my life was
just so amazing.

I was addicted to the barriers

And the easy connection they provided.

    However it was so
cool to have relationships online

    And then without
reason removing those friends by one click.

I was addicted to the growth I gained

As my fans went from hundreds to thousands.

    And when my
numbers went up it meant

    That I must be
worth something.

So, I was so addicted with my virtual world

That I was disconnected with my real life

Out there.

    That’s the bitter
truth.

    All the “likes” in
the world couldn’t inspire me.

    And a million
instagram followers

    couldn’t complete
me.

    No matter how full
was my inbox,

    I always felt
empty.

    I had a serious
problem

    And I had to find
a solution

    To take my life
back.

    I joked about my
addiction

    To social media,

    I rarely thought
of it as this,

    As something that
can seriously affected my health.

    So I went to
clean. I took them all off my phone.

    I still use social
media on computers,

    But I want to make
sure they are not always with me

    Every second and
everywhere.

    Only when I
reduced my social media habit

    I realised how
enveloping

    They are designed
to be.

    The way I was
using Facebook and Instagram

    I gradually
realised, was downright masochistic.

    When I was feeling
bad about my life,

    I looked at
pictures of other people’s “perfect” lives

    And felt even
worse.

    They take social
pressures and conventions

    And amplifies them
a million times.

    Comparing other
people’s timelines with my own

    Made me start to
worry about the need to conform in a way That I never had before.

    Reducing my social
media habit

    Didn’t make me
more productive

    However, it did
make me see

    How little value
they added to my life.

    So, choosing to
opt out of the constant noise,

    To reclaim my
attention, was a massive relief.

    And it also
reduced my anxiety levels.

    I finally stopped
comparing myself with others so much.

    My thoughts and
conversations are becomed more succinct as I’ m not constantly interrupted

    By the sound of a
text message or push notification.

    Anyway after years
of intense co-dependence with my Smartphone I am eager to see

    How I can enrich
my brain and my life

    Without the
constant need to have a phone in my hand.

    Perhaps I can
finally learn to ballroom dance,

    I can finally
enjoy a meal without first snapping a picture Of my food,

    I can finally
travel without constantly checking in on Facebook,

    I can finally be
truly present in the company of my friends And family,

    I can finally
reading a book without stopping to look

    At my phone every
few chapters,

    Or simply

    I can finally sit
quietly and be comfortable and satisfied

    With my own
thoughts and ideas.

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