I’ve always wondered about my brain. What does it look like? Does its texture change over time? Does it swell when I’m anxious? Some of these curiosities can be addressed with a simple Google search, but others — like questions about my mental health — are more personal, and not of the search engine variety. When I was younger, for example, I was diagnosed with depression, but it’s not something I identify as having today. Even though I don’t feel like I’m depressed now — I’m no longer treated with therapy or medication — would an image of my brain reveal otherwise? I recently decided to get a brain scan with psychiatrist Daniel Amen, M.D., a renowned yet controversial figure in psychiatry today. I hoped that this experience would answer some of these lingering questions. The results, as well as Dr. Amen’s suggestions for me, may surprise you.