Sometimes our perfectly organized schedules change. We switch from summertime to a family school schedule or we change jobs and our calendars need to adjust (but so do our bodies).
I’m in between jobs and I have a few weeks before the next one starts. Suddenly, I’m not so rushed off my feet. And I feel a little “off.” Is this what depression feels like? Am I depressed? When we find ourselves feeling this way, we need to listen to our bodies. But it’s not always easy to figure out what it’s telling us.
Feeling “off” hasn’t been a comfortable feeling. I have more free time than I’d like. So I’ve increased the number of times I meditate, floss, read, go for a walk, and I cook all my meals in real time! But I’m also not sleeping well. I’m up in the middle of the night. And for days, I’d been returning to and dwelling on the concept of depression – is this the beginning of my spiral?
My body seemed to be telling me that this was the case, but I sat back to consider the concrete situation. My schedule is just not as full as it usually is. I’m not slammed against the wall from an intense day at work. I’m not racing to catch the train. I’m not squeezing in conference calls while I walk or drive. My system and my schedule have just slowed down. So now what? How could I help my body to understand?
I was confused by what my body was telling me, so it was time to pull out the big guns. I immediately switched my essential oil diffusers over from calming, focusing, and grounding scents to brighter more uplifting ones. A little bergamot, a little ginger, some citrus oils like lemon and lime. The apartment was full of the incredible smell of clear, fresh air and my mood immediately shifted.
What the oils helped me unpack is that I’m not depressed, I’m just bored! And it’s ok. It’s not depression, it’s not sadness, it’s not loneliness. It’s just boredom, little kid boredom. I’m not fighting with people at work, I’m not engaged in a stressful project, I’m not questioning my abilities on the job. My mind is calm and this is what it feels like. Who knew?!
Now, sometimes, we will legitimately be depressed and there are ways of dealing with that too! But other times, what feels like depression can be something else entirely. So, when things slow down, or a sea change occurs, or you are snowed in for a few days, or we hit the dog days of summer, just remember that you may not be depressed. You could just be a little bored. So, grab some light and bright scents, allow them to shift your mood, block the calendar off with things that are fun and uplifting, and embrace the pace.
Originally published at stacymccormack.com